And everybody wants to know somehow (just don't ask me for the truth)
And change is change but that ain't wisdom
An endless track of endless tracks - pretend
And never leave this track once it begins

[Chorus]
Explanations, expectations - I'll find some other way
No here's how to help hallucinations - it's just from day to day
And Junior finds some strange salvation - I'd say he's wrong
'Cause maybe when it's all done - this is just a song

If no one knows then how can they be wrong
Deplete it all it seems before to long
Insanity - a blink ten thousand years
Insanity - well there is nothing here

[Chorus]

Today it seems some wounds will never mend
A simple thought but clouds of doubt again

[Chorus]


W. Graber

What is the nature of the giant that we won't fight?
oh no - I've lost myself again
And if I should become defiant, have I the right?
what did you call it that for?
oh no - I've lost the game again
oh no - I've lost myself again

[Chorus]
Don't know quite how to say it
tell me I'm wrong
tell me I'm wrong
Don't know just how to do it
tell me I'm wrong
tell me I'm wrong

If it would only stop it's spinning, I might reach higher
oh no - I've lost myself again
Another game that's not worth winning, will I retire
what did you call it that for?
oh no - I've lost the game again
oh no - I've lost myself again

[Chorus]


Music: Arcwelder
Words S. Macdonald

And hey this is something different - and then again
Now down 'til I can't remember - was it here or there
Time is time that we're always out of - or within like a fool
Now it's not and it's got no answer - like a dead pool

[Chorus]
This is a dream - This is a lie
For what it's seems why did we try
If you were here, would you get by?
If you didn't see then I didn't cry

She went out and she didn't come back - it just didn't seem
Wasn't smiling, she was pretending - in what she didn't believe
caught up in the morning paper - another story gone
He was here and he couldn't' answer - but it won't be long

[Chorus]


Music: Arcwelder
Words: W. Graber & S. Macdonald

Why do I try - fighting against your indifference?
I always say it's OK - I was only lying the last time
You seem to want - to hear a song written about you
Better write it yourself - or it's not gonna be very flattering

It's not how I need it
It's not how I planned it
It's not how I want it
But I got it

I admit that it's lust - frees my mind from thinking
I'm not the last one - who'll fall to that emotion
I am nothing - that's what you would have me believing
Time to move on - to bigger and better disasters

It's not how I saw it
It's not how I need it
It's not how I want it
But I got it

It's all a game
My hearts a flame
No ground to gain
A speeding train

I always know when to quit - when I've overstayed my welcome
I'm not unbreakable - sorry if I gave that impression
I try to help you - but I'm left with a handful of rope burn
If I seem bitter - at least I've conveyed my emotion

It's not how I need it
It's not how I planned it
It's not how I want it
But I got it

It's all the same
I lose again
The cause to blame
A speeding train

A speeding train


S. Macdonald

Look for answers you've never gotten
You knew them once but now they're forgotten
So you go
And you want me to see how to see
You don't want me to feel all alone
And you want to believe I'll believe
But I'll never believe that at all

[Chorus]
Have you found the time
Is it just another lie - is it just another lie?
And time is time is time this time

And you tell me to lighten up now
I'm much to serious about it all
And you know
I can understand what you say
Day by day when there's no other way
But I wish you could feel what I feel
Cause you'd never say that again

[Chorus]

There ain't no reason why
There ain't no reason why


W. Graber

I have this dream involving you and me
It grows then fades changing every day
Fine tune it then it fades out again
Feel like I'm a criminal

[Chorus]
Could it be - you don't try to understand
Now could it be - you should lead and not command
Now could it be - I won't give in to your demands
Feel like I'm a criminal

Am I that dense - you tell me "no offense"
Then criticize right between the eyes
Black dirt white grain - ideas wash down the drain
Step back away - listen to what you say
It's got to go and I think you should know
Feel like I'm a criminal

[Chorus]


Music: Arcwelder
Words S. Macdonald

And you say you will when you won't
Thought that you do but you don't
So far lost it's hard to find
Felt all alone but I don't mind
And now you'll sing a sad sad song
And all those friends that did you wrong
Well who was right and who was wrong?
And where's the one who's just like you?

[Chorus]
(I has it all he said)
What if the universe is cold
Y'know
What if there's nothing there at all... at all... at all

Tears of joy and tears of pain
But it all starts to look the same
How do you say what you don't know
You make the words up as you go
And now you'll sing a song so sad
And think of all the friends you had
Well who was right and who was had
And where's the one who's just like you?

[Chorus]

And worry 'bout things that come and go
If no one knows then no one knows

(I has it all he said)
What if the universe is cold
Y'know
(And I didn't say a word)
What if there's nothing there at all... at all... at all


W. Graber

Believe the unbelievable - feel what it's like
Thinking the unthinkable - feel what is life
I'm doing the impossible - remember to forget
Deny the undeniable - I can't remember yet

So sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
Just sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you

See the unforeseeable - and see that it's a choice
Perceive the unperceivable - my vision and my voice
Explain the unexplainable - to those who never feel
Convincing the invincible - is insight not for real

So sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
Just sing a little pop song - then everybody loves you
So live a little pop life - real or pretend
Sing a little pop song - like it will never end

Music and words: W. Graber & S. Macdonald

And he says Lahabim (I will know)
And he knows what that means
I heard a wise man lie
He knows what that should mean
He was his right hand man
Fought for the good of man
I watched this wise man die
He knows what that should mean

[Chorus]
Lahabim
(Don't be sad)

The group of seven falls
And question who's to blame
I watched this river die
He knows what that should mean
He was his left hand fool
Fought for the good of man
I watched this wise man die
He knows what that should mean

[Chorus]

W. Graber

Wish that you could see thing the way I do
It isn't only me it isn't only you
I can't say it's bad but I can't say it's good
Makes me feel so sad I'd tell you if I could

[Chorus]
I'm not giving up I'm not going back
But I'm not going forward I'm not going backward
Not backing out not turning heel
Just not moving just not moving

It gets hard to speak when all must be explained
I could take a week if I could find a day
I could hardly move when it all came to be
What do I need to prove what do I need to be

[Chorus]

And you've had so much pain
And you've had so much sorrow
And I've had nothing
And I've had nothing

Believe me I know you only want what's best
I don't wanna go I only want what's best
Gotta stay close so we can work it out
Didn't stay close we didn't work it out

[Chorus]


S. Macdonald

When the night is turned to coal black
and all I have are wounds in my back
And I'm looking for a smile
that will save me for awhile
Now some will call it reckless
to wear my heart like a necklace
But it seems they'd never miss me
and I want someone to kiss me
Don't wanna be looking anymore
don't wanna be missing anymore
I wanna have I wanna have

Finish my song

When I'm doing what I'm able
and I choke under the label
And I'm looking for a friend
so it won't happen again
Now they tie me to the desktop
'cause the cycle never will stop
And I want to get away
live to fight another day
Don't wanna be looking anymore
don't wanna be missing anymore
I wanna have I wanna have

Finish my song


S. Macdonald

Here we are, here we stand
No one seems to understand
Afraid you've seen to much
To really know what's best
Ain't it strange when you don't know what's true

You without your book of questions
We missed out on all the best ones
Something we just had to do
Tried to feel so much better
Tried to make the easy way out
But there's nothing I can do

[Chorus]
And maybe I should really know... You
But I feel like I don't know... You

One more day - one more time
I can't find some peace of mind
Tell me that it doesn't matter
Tell me that I should know better
And it's just a waste of time

[Chorus]

Y'know it's all right

One last day - one last time
Now to find some peace of mind
All I know (I think I know)
All I know (I think I know)
All I know is I don't know

And I still don't even know - what to do
Another friend another time...


W. Graber