Hey - And did you want to help me out?
And help this fear and help this doubt
For what it's worth I have my doubts

So - when all is good and all is right
And you make day from what is night
I found this balance nature's right

[chorus]
Take this down and put it somewhere safe
And when it dies you'll call it rape
If thoughts are life then I don't think
So tell me who it was this time

Now - now climb the side of Marburg cliff
With blood red moss instead of dirt
It's filled with every fear that's lurked

Well - well if you're counting, count on us
We'll help you find what you have loss
Well if it counts you've lost my trust

[chorus]

So this right I have my doubts
So this is something I have my doubts
So nothing is something I have my doubts

W. Graber

I've stepped out I'm free
Now it's time to peddle my own wares
What's alright with me
Has never been a priority of theirs

I was so sick of it all
No way to be

[chorus]
Free me, let me out
Release me, from this doubt
And I know that I don't ever want to pass this way again

So glad to be gone
Living my life at a slower pace
I'm off with a yawn
Taking time off from the rat race

I'll have no regrets
When all's said and done

[chorus]

It was all I could take
It was all I could fake
It was all I could forsake
At the time

You go ahead
Screw yourself into the ground
I'll take it easy instead
Enjoy some life while I'm around
At the end of my time
It's me who'll be proud

[chorus]

It was all I could take
It was all I could fake
It was all I could forsake
I'm alive

S. Macdonald

The pit of fear and the roots of fools
I took the lies and made them rules
If it is over why do I doubt
If you don't feel then let me out

You can't become a different you
Why did I think instead of do
With all there is to lose or gain
Why do I only see the pain

'Cause I feel. . . feel. . . I feel. . . feel. . . Unknown. . . Unknown

I have no pride for what's been done
I fought the war that no one won
I'm guilty of the guilt unclear
I only wish that you were here

A fenceless sky for the first time
I could not recognize the sign
It's how it feels like getting old
I hope the universe ain't cold

'Cause I feel. . . feel. . . I feel. . . feel. . . Unknown. . . Unknown

W. Graber

I've an appointment today with a cultural slave to the snakepit called the music biz
So I'm hanging around just to meet this clown who lies and says the pleasure is his
He seems to think I'll be impressed by the hair upon his chest
'Cause his shirt's unbuttoned down to his navel
He begins to decree that the problem is me
I want out of here as soon as I'm able

[chorus]
Snake oil man
He draws a line in the sand
And he dares you to cross it
'Cause he knows that you won't
Take it all away
Sell it for gain
Take away everything
And you can never have it again

He praises to excess the current success of a new band past the million mark
That was two years ago and he should have known that today nobody knows who they are
His ideals revolve around how we should kneel down
And give service to his symbol of power
I've got myself in a jam 'cause I don't know where I am
I've had enough of this waste of an hour

[chorus]

The uphill climb
Is not worth the time
How can he sleep at night
Power is a crime

[chorus]


S. Macdonald

Pulled all the answers from the air
Believed in beliefs but didn't care
Visionaries lost without a clue
And all the lost will look for what to do

He's just blowin' smoke but still you're here
He's just blowin' smoke but still you're here

Taught and told so felt that this is true
So thought and fought to figure it all out
And see they made it up to end their fear
And never think about it 'till it's near

He's just blowin' smoke but still I'm here
He's just blowin' smoke but still I'm here

And those who see just seem more blind
Nicer to know than undefined
The more I think the more it seems unclear
Many thousands gone but still I'm here

W. Graber

History repeats itself ad infinitum
If the plans come off the shelf he hopes he was invited
And the world's hard on the kid
For something he never did
And the weight is square on his shoulder
And for trying he's only getting older
But the priest is the least of his problem

History repeats again ad infinitum
If you should be caught my friend the wrong cannot be righted
As the night falls he tries to be brave
It's his future he's trying to save
Once again he says it doesn't matter
As the coach calls up another batter
But his leash is the least of his problem

S. Macdonald

Hold me to something besides this 'I don't mind'
'Cause I'll line the streets without you and your kind
If you feel like lying you'll fit in after all
But nothing's as clear as the crystal of clueless

There's nothing so clear
And you want to see through the fear
And it seems to mean what it seems to mean
But it dies no matter what
No matter what
And somehow you know it will
Like Captain Allen says
It feels like less than it is

Stop me before I say too much again
'Cause I'd like to think that there's something in nothing
If you feel like dying just hang around awhile
'Cause nothing's worth less than the less of what you know

And you have no rules
'Cause you wanted to be so cool
And it seems to mean what it seems to mean
But it dies no matter what
No matter what
And somehow you know it will
Like Captain Allen says
It feels like less than it is

voice 1:
I wanna feel just like Captain Allen feels
And I wanna live just like Captain Allen lives
I wanna see just like Captain Allen sees
And I wanna be just like Captain Allen is

voice 2:
How many times have I heard that one before
How many times how many times how many times

voice 3:
Don't feel less anymore

W. Graber

No I won't be saying goodbye any time soon and I
I promise not to be an asshole
I could give my all for our good if you can then I would
Promise not to be an asshole

You are always worried that I'll be leaving in a hurry
If you speak it as the truth, then how can I refute
I believe in working on it, I will pour my heart upon it
I will do my best, you know I will do my best

So why is this so hard to write if you will then I might
Promise not to be an asshole
Deneen all my life where've you been make a move cause a scene
I promise not to be an asshole

This is something different for me I'm no longer lonely
And all that's passed before was just a mindless chore
Open up yourself to me and let me make you happy
If you'd take it on blind faith, have to take it on blind faith

That I won't be saying goodbye any time soon and I
I promise not to be an asshole
I'm a sap you've got me writing such crap by falling into my lap
I promise not to be an asshole

Usually when I'm writing I am writing something biting
As emotions start to seethe, the words pour right out of me
This is hard for me to give, just writing something positive
This is my gift to you, now here's my gift to you my Deneen

S. Macdonald

So stay to myself and how's this door been opened
And all these superstitions won't help now
And now is the time 'cause now I've been forgotten (It's the sadness of the year)
And now I try to fix this hole in the sky

The road to here was paved with the best intentions (In the browness and the sear)
Like the hope to understand it most of all

And now you wanna help
'Cause now you've got yourself
And now you know what's best
'Cause now you blame the rest

And now and now I know
And now and now I know
And now and now I know
And now and now AND NOW

This came to me here 'cause I'm weary from the surface (It's the silence of the year)
The rarest common untold from the sun
The simplest thought through a fog that's near and truest (In the silence for the fear)
And a miracle darkest hope comes from this none

And now you wanna help
'Cause now you've got yourself
And now you know what's best
'Cause now you blame the rest

And now I see the less of everything
And the dream is over
And now I've learned its got the best of me
And the dream is over NOW

too soon (So stay to myself now)
to see for less (So stay to myself now)
to go And now (So stay to myself now)
I know And now And now

Know (s macdonald) Is it the same old, is it the same again
Or will I find something new
Throw on a blindfold, throw out my name at them
Throw out my pride with it too
Why do I do it, nobody wants to starve
Don't want to bury myself
I'm a conduit, and that's my heart you carve
Into the base for your wealth

[chorus]
What do I want, I want to know
What do I want, I want to know
What do I want, I want to know
What do I want, I want to know

Please let me stay free, sit on my butt all day
Just throw the cash right on in
I'll make you happy, I'll stay the hell away
You think I lose but I win
Don't brush me off now, you think you don't need me
There's probably no time to think
I am your cash cow, moronic fantasy
I am the whole kitchen sink

[chorus]
[break]

[chorus]

W. Graber

And she's been fishing for compliments
Makes her cast over the water
She is still weak but growing stronger
Like a web you don't attend to

And it's always good to see you
But don't use me for your vengeance

Her heart's been peeled like a grape
She's looking for someone to cling to
And if I throw her out a life line
Will I be sucked into the whirlpool

And it's always good to see you
But don't use me for your vengeance

One never knows
She let her guard down
I could say too much
The day you don't look twice is the day the train comes by

He just pretends he doesn't see her
She sees too much to pretend
Her disappointment his indifference
Is something she can keep forever

And it's always good to see you
Just don't use me for your vengeance


S. Macdonald

Your plans to be king
You're the edge of the world's smallest Ocean
If you had to concede
Concede that truth is just a belief now
I was hoping to lie around and wait
For one more chance at conjecture
Just by happenstance
I never lied like I'm lying about it now

[chorus]
And I don't know who to turn to
Is there something that I should know
Crossed for free when no one was looking
Never paid so you never really know

How far back can it go
How far back in anyone's logic
How mortal to be
How tragic. . . should life be tragic
I was hoping to lie around and wait
For one more chance at confession
Just by happenstance
I lied like I never lied before

[chorus]


W. Graber

instrumental

W. Graber

They borrow words for thoughts and steal what they feel from fools who choose to feel
For every black and white for every ash to ash shades of grey will clash

For every dream there's a fool to back it up where every word has been sized up
And maybe feels like everything
Every line that falls and every crack an empty fear keeps coming back
And maybe feels like everything

And every vacant hope a spring to this winter's night from hands of man of mine
The heart of hearts will fade I'm haunted here by this loss of what I dreamed it was

But for every dream there's a fool to back it up where every word has been sized up
And maybe feels like everything
Every line that falls and every crack an empty fear keeps coming back
And maybe feels like everything

And how's it supposed to be right now
My mind's betrayed my heart again
And how's it supposed to be right now
My mind's betrayed my heart again

Some are yours and some are lost
Ash to ash But lost is lost
Some of the words are known I guess
Hope for sign beyond what's clear
But every truth will disappear
Some of the words are yours alone
Some are yours and some are lost
Ash to ash But lost is lost
Some of the words are known I guess
Hope for sign beyond what's clear
But every truth will disappear
Some of the words are yours alone

And I tried to say that some of what this is. . . isn't everything


W. Graber